-Realized my job was not going well
-Had a nervous breakdown at 1 in the morning in car (not my proudest moment)
-Completed three short stories, submitted to a contest
-Started (and working on) a new novel! Er, Novella? Book? Thing? I'll have pages and words, that's all I can promise.
-In search of a title for my short story (that will eventually become a trilogy) that can't be submitted to another contest until I figure that out. Contest due Jan. 31. Bleh!
-Had to say goodbye to a friend too soon and desperately wished they were here. Or that I was there...(But Sweden is so cold......)
-Was grateful for amazing friends, old friends, and new.
-Started looking for new jobs because old job is STILL not going well.
And last but not least, I find myself at the moment in constant state of either being very positive about life, or very down about it followed by a slightly panicked feeling. Which is not okay. Normally I'm very positive consistently, so the fact that I'm changing feelings nearly every other day is not good for my moral OR my peace of mind. My mind likes peace. It likes being positive. Universe, please explain yourself!
I have an inkling suspicion that its because I'm unhappy with where I am in life. Not my physical location by any means, but just for.....life. I should be further along. I should be published. But I'll get there. I've always been a late bloomer in a lot of things in life, why not writing as well, eh? It's still furstrating though, knowing where you want to be and not being there yet.
One thing I would like to say, because I can, is how I feel about New Years. A person recently said that no one should use New Years as an excuse to start something new. It's not needed. But I have an argument against that. Sure, you could just decide at any moment to start a new diet, or a new relationship, or a new fashion trend, but people NEED a push. And New Years is excellent for that. Its a Fresh Start, that's what people feel New Years is. A new year to do things differently, a REASON to do things differently. Its a NEW YEAR. A new you. A new...whatever you want.
I know I appreciate having a chance to take a breath and say, "okay, this is a new year. I can do things differently." and then DO IT. So yes, you can start something new anytime you want, but I think its perfectly reasonable and logical to start new things on New Years.
Oh, and expect a rant in the soon to be future (probably sometime this week. Wensday? Thursday?) about Nannying and children with ADHD. If you don't like rants or ADHD you MIGHT just want to grab a drink and walk away. Or grab a drink and listen in. It's going to be fun. In fact, grab a drink for me too! Thanks!
